So yeah...I have a confession to make

Lets all skip merrily back in time to the march of last year where I made this post TERRIBLY lazy post.

lets have a closer look at number 3 shall we.

so yeah... I have a confession to make. I read

 Twilight.something I swore on my mortal 

 soul I would never ever do. but let me explain. it all started at Christmas it was cold and I was all cozy and 100% ready for my next reading adventure when I realized

I READ ALL. THE. BOOKS. my TBR shelf was just a barren 

land of despair I mean what else do I do,I'm

not sporty I don't want to go play video games, or do actual work, I wanted a book

as i am a reader, and i was gonna read if it killed me.

so, I logged on to my listening  books account, its like audible for dyslexics and Iwould 100% recommend it. to see if I could find a audio book that would fill the void until I had courage enough to leave home & trek though that blizzard to water stones.

I scrolled though YA and then I saw it for the first time it spoke to me. 

long story short I listen to the whole thing. and I sort of liked it. Bella was not as dumb as i though she would be and Edward Cullen,not just a sparkly drama queen, okay maybe a little but if you didn't enjoy that aspect just a bit your a liar . It will never be my favourite book and I may never even read on but I  glad I tryed it. I was pleasantly surprised by it, never imagined I would 

like the Romantic vampire genre. I did particularly enjoy the normal teenager though process of the characters eg when in doubt

 go to google. Basically this hole post just

means that is okay to change your opinions, mine changed and I

 admit I was wrong, doing so has allowed me to

open myself to new types of reading. which I  think is a good thing. you can always try things out it doesn't mean you have to like it when you do but I means you have given it a chance and you never know you might be better for it.

that said I  am totally not a twihard now and probably never will be ...

*cough* *cough* i'll see you all soon i will try to get some kind if regular posting system down soon. probably.. anyway thanks for reading!

roasting my pretentious Instagram. (is it a tag? no so shut up)

I know this blog's been dead for like 5 weeks but if it didn't die then this whole coming back to life thing wouldn't be as impressive. would it no one would give one about Lazarus if he walked up to his friends like "hey guys still alive, as always" because they would think me was stupid. oh yeah, this was supposed to be about roasting my Instagram. I don't really have a lot to say about that tho so lets just get into destroying what little bit of dignity I have left shall we.

caption: *sunglasses emoji*

reality: wow look at you you'er so cool, not drinking alcholo at a BAR, such a rebel, also why is that piture such a tight shot? beacuse if you zoom out you cant see the 300 other people in my coach party, thats why.

caption: my baby is here but I can not read it until the 5th this is a true test of my inner strength

reality: wowww i can read but im also out dooresy, even tho is is my patio and I have no intention of reading or doing any others activets exept BBQ's out here. plus all inner strength you had was lost when you watch the entirety of stranger things in one day. 

caption: I just may set off in another direction entirely 

reality: I can not drive.

caption: just found this when clearing out my old laptop #tb

reality: you also found that photoshoped image of you fist bumping braco obama but you were sprisingly able to with held that one.

there's more but I'm done. see ya when I care again.

absolutely potty for... slyther-claw!! (alternatively titled guys its STILL NOT A TAG POST)

Two posts in one day!!!, why Miss Rachel how productive of you, one would almost think your were avoiding doing some other, more important work...

Anyway hello and welcome to another harry potter post! and yes I am dragging my love of harry potter out, but if J.K. Rowling  can stretch a fictional text book in to 5 films, I can make multiple potter posts.So recently with my friends have been disusing combined houses and which combination we would be in. I have taken 3 different tests online and here are my results.

slytherDor
slytherclaw
slytherclaw

It's kind of strange to get slytherin in them all, because I am literally the most enthusiastic raven-claws ever, I love my bird herd. Maybe its because I am both smart and cunning, maybe I am like a evil genius, or maybe I am just a bird brained snake, you know who's to say.

I am not one of those people offended about being slytherin, its a pretty cool house, I mean Snape was in it and I am convinced that I would make Snape be my best friend. I would just be tying to hype him up and dragging him in to weird situations. Then maybe I could use my knowledge and his teacher connection to land a job as like a councilor at Hogwarts when i leave. God knows they need one, I mean harry stare up 86'ed some one in like year 1, kid's got issues.

Anyway what joint house are you? or would you like to be? why am i asking questions like i am a bout to end the post? because I am. I am even procrastinating at procrastination blog post (it takes commitment to reach this level... or lack of actually, i don't know)

See you soon! p.s It's still not a tag and you can't take that way from me.

Healthy relationships (alternatively titled its not a tag post!)

It's not a tag!!! It's actually like a legitimate topic thing, with words and paragraphs. No i haven't been replaced by aliens because why replace a sleep deprived and yet some how hyper active elf, when a Clint Eastwood is an option (just saying). Stay focused Rachel, be professional. I am way out of my dept here, but i still wanted to make this post because i know how important the issues surrounding relationships are and i always try to take part in its support and discussions. This is not sponsored (who would sponsor me lets be real)  i just want to help gain awareness for this issue.

My first topic is knowing when to start or stop a relationship. as some one how has suffered form spots of depression and anxiety in the past and possibly will still in the future (lucky me). i know personal happiness and inner control of that happiness is key. so if you on the back end of a similar issues this point will be relevant to you. try not to start a new relationship (this is generally about romantic relationships but could apply to friendships) that take up a large portion of your happiness in this time. don't get me wrong you can have mental health problems and have a happy relationship,but what i'm specifically referring to is setting up a new relationship just to help you recover .Its kind of like building the foundations of a building if you build your happiness so that its relies solely on the support of another structure, thing or person then you will not have fixed you problem in the long term.

Similarly if you are in a relationship and you feel like your unhappy, you have tried working it out with your partner and nothings going right its okay to just get out because if you are starting to feel sad or controlled or just like your not in a good place in general, that could turn in to resentment of your self or your partner, which could create a toxic relationship, which you again affect your health both mental and physical.

That was admittedly was a very short post (not a tag. A.POST, that the important thing we all need to remember). I'm sorry it switched between serious and none serious tones, though out and please remember these options are all my personal advice and i know every case is different. Thanks for reading see you soon.

tonight at the floor show: I do the musical theater tag!!!

1. first musical you ever saw?
if i was gonna for the first musical i saw on DVD or video i would have to say Oliver for video and marry Poppins for DVD but theater wise saw the Lion king in London with my school in year 7. It was amazing, i just loved how colorful and energetic it was. Also as i knew the story because i am such a huge Disney nerd, so it was easy to follow.

2. Favorite musical growing up?
Mine changes far to often but i would have to say the 2 most constant are les misarables and The sound of music. They have been in my top 4 for years now.

3. where you ever in a musical?
No unfortianly i have had minor roles in natrivitys and school plays but never in an actual musical as for one my voice was 3000times more pitchy as a child and I was never involved in any Drama clubs because i was an anitysocail child who didn't like big group activitys.

4. first musical you say on boardway/ the west end?
The Lion King.

5. If you could be any female character in a musical who would you be and why?
As a kid i would have said maria as i love the sound of music or Mary Poppins because Julie Andrews is my queen, but i think now i would like to be Angelica from Hamilton. I have listened to the sound track and her songs are my favorite. She is so selfless but sassy and i just love her. My close second would be Gilda (wicked) or Wednesday Adams (the Addams family musical) which is a very strange combination.

6.Which male character?
Fagin because i used to practice i am reviewing the situation a kid, because i am normal. my other two runner ups Amus heart (Chicago), mainly because i love singing Mr cellophane and i have my own dance routine to it, or Burt (Marry Poppins) because i wanna dance with penguins damn it.

7. favorite musical to sing in the shower?
weirdly i do sing Ava maria from sister act a lot in the shower but i think the one i sing most is wash that man right out of my hair from south Pacific because it just fits.

8.Favorite theater actress?
Carrier hopefletcher she was so so so good in Chitty, when i went to see it.

9.actour?
Gernimo rauch, i have only ever seen him in Phantom of the Oprah but he was an amazing Eric.

10. Favorite movie adaptation?
Les Misarable, i have never seen the real stage show so for me the musical is the show as i love it, i watch it far to often.

11. most underated musical?
Heathers, its like scream queens meets the every 80's high school chic flick. what is not to love!

12. over rated musicals?
The king and I. i like parts of this one but i feel some parts are unnecessary and dull. i also did not really feel wowed by Annie but that is mainly because i found teh actress annoying.

14.musicals that made you cry?
 Phantom of the Oprah, and les misarable, becasue that ish is sad.

15. Musicals you saw and hated?
I have not come a cross one i completely hate yet.

16.a musical you would like to see as a film?
wicked, i would love to see all the effects and have a copy of the show to watch any time at home.

17.which musical are you dieing to see?
Anistaisa mostly!! i loved that film as a kid but i also want to see, Hamiliton (i only have the sound track and a plot summery) and La La land which my friends have introduced me to. (its an up coming film, i wanna make a hole post on it when its out).

18. a book to turn in to a musical?
I would quite like to see Weathering hights, because i like the book, it has an interesting story line, and they would already have one song to put in it. or (and i know this is kind of already a musical) the hunch back of notre dame in live action because i am obsessed with cartoons art style and color plate, plus creepy church music is my jam.

19.( add in) favorite musical to watch at Christmas?
scrooge the musical, AKA the best version of a Christmas carol... minus the Muppets.

Presents Tag

I SAY unoriginal you say content. UNORIGINAL. UNORGINAL. I SAY "a lot of things but not always that I have low to average self-esteem and like 60 ideas that, I am incapable of writing because I'm so tired, so instead I do tags to fill the void" and you say "Damn we are not you therapists."

Hey sorry for that intro, unless you didn't do the chant back because in that case I'm less sorry and more disappointed. (you have made a fool of me and I am perfectly capable of doing it my self).
anyway to day I am gonna do a tag ...big shock !! but as I do want make this a little bit more original was going to  try and do a less well known tag, but then I could not find one with a traveling to the metaphorical mordor of the internet, so I took matters in to my own hands... *insert ominous, but suspenseful drum beat* MY OWN (UNORIGNAL) PRESENTS TAG!!!! *HYPE HYPE HYPE*.

As a Christmas elf, you have got to know the prefect gift for everyone, for example Donald trump world like some building block, The UK wants democracy back and we would all like 2016 to end. Anyway for this tag I will be selecting fictional characters or people and saying what I would get them for Christmas and yes that is lame, but do you know what is one letter off lame. Fame (why am I bringing this up because I'm bad and linking my intro in my main text). so Fame, what a classic "I'm Gonna live for ever Baby remember my name" speaking of names and living for ever my first present goes to DOCTOUR WHO!! ( I warned you I was bad a linking it in).

So for the 12 doctor my perfect present would be tickets to go see the original premier of pretty women. A because I love that film, B because he plays the song on this guitar in one episode and C because it would be funny to see him sitting in a cinema surrounded by mostly women, watching a chick flick.

The next person on my presents list is Credence Barebone from, Fanatics beast, to whom I would give the world because he deserved better god damn it!!

My next present is for Barry aka the flash (the secrets out now sorry), I would give him the gift of The back to the future box set, SO HE MIGHT FINALLY REALISE HE NEEDS TO STOP MESSING WITH THE TIME LINES! seriously Barry!!!.

Also getting a gift this year is JK Rowling, she will be getting all my money... again.

Lin- Manuel Miranda gets all our love for being the sweets little cinnamon bun in the world.

My final gift goes out to us all, because Ransom Riggs is writing a new book, in the miss Peregrines universe, so what more could the world possibly want.

so that was... what ever that was Happy Christmas!!! and I will see you soon.

almost the end of autumn!!

Its my favorite half of the year the cold months, know lots of people dislike these months because of the weather and the fact that there are less out door actives. these facts are some of the reasons i love autumn and winter. and in order to make you understand my perspective as well i would like to give you my top ten reasons win-tumn rocks!!

0. its got win in the titles so...

1. holidays

2.coffee shops (have you guys tried the new costa range because, I am in love with there lindt hot chocolate)

3.scarfs and hats, as you can imagine I an all about that winter aesthetic.

4. colour pallet all those brown and oranges in autumn and then the crisp white winters, just makes me as a right brain kind of person just so so happy.

5. books! you get to read with out people trying to get you to go out and get some fresh air.

6. TV. al the good shows come back including the doctor who Christmas special!!!!!

7. food . so much chocolate and cake

8. candles, there are some great winter scented Yankee candles that the world needs to know about.

9.films: fantastic beasts is out soon and well as rogue one. its like a geeks paradise.

10. no heat, as a pale person I consider this my time of rest from the fresh hell that is summer heat waves.